This is a transcription of an interview I did with Tami Patzer that can be found on Women Innovators: Interviews with Women with Big Messages and Big Missions.
Tami Patzer (TP): I’m excited to introduce today’s guest, Krista Callas. Krista is a scientifically validated energy healer who connects people more deeply with the life force inherent in nature. This life force energy, this intelligent grace, uplifts and enhances health at every level for optimal vitality and wellbeing. Krista’s healing abilities have been validated through rigorous scientific research using cell based and mouse models for overall health and quality of life as well as vitamin D absorption. Welcome Krista.
Krista Callas (KC): Thank you, Tami. It’s good to be here.
TP: It’s exciting because those of you who have listened to my conversations with Krista before have heard us talk about all different types of things ranging from writing and journaling to life force energy and The Trivedi Effect®, and in one of our conversations, we were talking about writing and journaling and my response was, oh, sometimes I’m afraid to go there. I will stop myself from journaling or writing because I’m like, oh, what if something negative pops out on the page that I am not ready to deal with? And that kind of sparked this idea. And so Krista is back today to talk more about writing and journaling, and that fear that sometimes comes up for us when we are looking at ourself in introspection. So Krista, welcome to the show today and I’m excited to hear what you have to say.
KC: Thanks, Tami. Yes, you know, when we were talking last time and you said, “I’m not sure I want to know what’s going to pop out,” it really struck me. I’m kind of the opposite. I love it when things unexpected pop out on the page. I really love that. When you said that, I realized that not all of us necessarily have that orientation. And even though I love it when unexpected things pop out on the page, there have been times in my own writing, too, when I’m going along and all of a sudden I kind of slowly start backing away from the page because I can feel that there’s something big, something powerful that wants to emerge, and I can see how sometimes we don’t always feel ready to address that. So when you made that comment, I thought it’d be a great idea to just to talk about the ways that that happens.
First of all, I think it happens along a continuum. Often, one of the very first things that comes up for people when they start journaling or writing (no matter what genre) is the inner critic. And if you keep going along that spectrum, there’s the inner critic and then there’s that place that you pointed to, where the fear comes up.
Fear that says, “I don’t know if I’m ready to deal with this,” or, “I’m afraid of what might come out.” And if you keep going past that, on the same continuum, then you may bump into some emotional trauma. So the question becomes, how do we work with all these points along the spectrum as we’re writing. How do we work with the inner critic? How do we work with the fear of what might pop out on the page? How do we work with emotional trauma in journaling?
Emotional trauma often has the quality of a vortex that can suck you in. You can feel the current swirling, you can tell the waterfalls are coming. So, how do you work with that in your journaling in such a way that it can be something productive and have a positive outcome and can be transformative instead of just reliving the story and driving it deeper into your nervous system.
TP: I’d like to know about this inner critic because again, I’m a very creative person, for example, but think about how less productive you are if you stop yourself from that process of creating something or writing because of the fear of what happens, or what if some trauma comes up. And again, do I want to spend my day rehashing old stuff — because there has to be a way… Let’s say there was a traumatic experience, and I have a tendency to think that whatever happened to me wasn’t all that bad. I think that’s why I don’t want to look at it because maybe it was worse than what I allowed myself to feel. I know I’m not different because you just don’ talk about different things and then you say, well, yes, this might have been bad, but boy, this person, that was really bad.
If you look at these things on a spectrum of awful to really, really awful and sometimes, like you said, that inner critic says, “Well, who are you to have these feelings?” Or, “Why should you be writing about these different issues?” But it’s so funny, because I actually was just out in California with Bo Eason, who does personal storytelling acting out your personal story, not only through words but through your physicality. That was very interesting to see just his body language and the words and he had the audience of about 700 people mesmerized. So right there, get rid of that inner critic, and you have a personal story that can actually be transformational. And I think you’ve said several things. You said the inner critic, how to get rid of that. You talked about, well, how do we use our stories for transformation? So there’s just so much that you can do, but tell me more about this inner critic and how can we, I guess, use it. Help us get into transformation.
KC: Yes, sure. My perception of the inner critic is that oftentimes that voice is comopsed of echoes from the past. It’s often somebody else’s voice that we’ve internalized from a very young age. And the thing about the inner critic is that it has a tremendous amount of vitality. It has a tremendous amount of energy — for some of us more than others. And that particular energy needs a better job then just hashing us apart. No matter how it shows up, whether it’s on the page or in life in general, it looks and sounds different for different people, but we all know that feeling when we’re undermining ourselves or we’re sabotaging ourselves or in some way keeping ourselves from moving forward.
For me at times it has been like saying something you mentioned: “Who do you think you are?” Or, “That’s the dumbest thing I’ve ever seen!” Meanwhile, you’re working and writing and can easily start thinking, Oh my gosh, maybe that really is silly!
So let’s dilineate that there are different writing functions. In the first draft, we’re going for just letting the creative juices flow. When you’re really in that place of flowing with the work, your awareness and your focus gets very sharp, very pointed. It becomes who you are in that moment and all of time disappears. The environment around you disappears, because you’re just in that flow. You’re in the river of wherever the story is taking you, or whatever you’re discovering and writing about.
And when the inner critic starts to pop up, what I’ve noticed about that is that it’s an overview kind of a voice. It’s like a giant vulture that’s hovering over you, saying, “Oh, look at that! That’s no good!” And it’s typically pretty mean. Ultimately, it’s really a developmentally immature part of ourselves, but at the same time it has a lot of juice.
So how do we give the inner critic a better job? How do we use that potent energy for a constructive outcome?
Read More in Part 2: Sacred Journaling: The Dialog Continues